depression part whatever.

Ngayon lang pumasok ung depression ever since I left the house.  Ngayon ko lang nararamdaman na mahirap pala.  Yeah, I know I said that I am enjoying independent life nad it IS true.  Pero ag hirap mag-commute from sampaloc hanggang work.  It’s starting to annoy me. 

Point number 2:  I still have not learned how to budget money.  And I’m starting to get abso-fuckingly worried.  Well… If you’re gonna base what I got last month to what I got this month, it’s too fuckingly way below.  And it’s the Christmas season.  Well, it’s another reason for me to hate Christmas.

Point number 3:  I’m eternally grateful to my friend, Charmane and to my other friends who have been so really supportive of me.  But I am now in a phase where I feel so.. I dunno.. alone?  Even if I talk to other people and I hang out with them, I still feel really detached. 

Is it possible to just sleep for one whole week and just dream this never happened?

Is it possible to just keep it all inside, have a big goofy smile plastered on your face and pretend that you’re perfectly happy with your life?

Is it okay to just not talk?

Is it okay to just disappear from the face of the earth?

Is it okay to just die and get everything over with?

-Paula-